1 Jan 2009

it was lonely night yesterday even I have told him (Dear Dear) to accompany me and hinted tht I'm lonely bt couldn't get him frm ytr night until now. His hp is off agin haiz. Sometimes I'm wondering tht he just can't balance his job with his personal life and he kp saying tht he need some1 to take care of him. he need me bt he didn't give me the time and opportunities.

Leaving me alone celebrating w friends tht just knw. Even yester when I saw couples walking in streets in 2 hands holding tightly. The feeling is unbearable and lonely..... I felt like crying in night bt it's New Year and I don't wish to spoilt my mood.

I knw tht he's could be a very gd hubby bt he's couldn't make me feel tht I'm important in his life, some1 tht u could lose out and get it anyway. E feeling is even stronger by time and I'm really wish to talk it out with him bt he's just dun time for me. If he think tht he's nt changing his attitude then it time for me to pass by him & go on with my life.

I don't wish to waste on this kind of issue, life w/o is hard bt I still get on with my life. See how it's gg on, I need a talk and it's must be a good talk. I really have to see when is he free???