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29 March 2010

2010-03-29T08:37:00.000-07:00

Finally I can officially declared that i'm attached... ^^/)

My dearest name ~ James Ho... Very caring and understanding guy... We have passed our first month and still very loving to each other... not a moment of arguement have start in between us... The more I know him, I'm getting more and more attracted by him... How shall I said it? it's his characters that wonder me...

Even we go clubbing together, no fighting... Seriously I dun like quarrels with my partner and finally found some1 that I wish to be serious with... Hope that we will last ^^(\/)

I also cut short my hair... Does I look nice with my new hairstyle? ^^

31 Jan 2010

2010-01-30T08:42:00.000-08:00

this is first blog i have for 2010... I'm too busy with work... last 2 weeks was staying in office until 9pm... still usual, busying with work and hmmmm with some1 (unable to disclose name) hahahaha ^@^

Sayang ask me abt "him", I only can said tht he's some1 tht being with me for years... Life still go and we still remain same... old kind of r/s, same regret tht I have with him... if I said yes tht time, wat will happen to US? lolz... nw I'm become relax toward him as it's impossible for us to become "official" as some issues happen ard us... hmmmm I can say tht i'm single but no available... Even my cousin also ask me, why u choose him??? u shall go better options!!!

it's nt matter abt the choice but hw you feel toward the other party... kind of used to him and I wanna to end our r/s last year becos I wanna to be serious with "some1" but end up I got is another experience in my life... even "him" ask wat happen to me when I'm act so sad in fb and blog and meeting with him... maybe it's fate, maybe it's nothin to me...

finding some1 right tht can accept the real me is nt easy... finding some1 tht understand me well is even more difficult and he does... maybe I just kill my time, maybe until when I'm really tired and I shall totally giveup... No need to emo at this time as there isn't anything tht upset me... I just worry abt dddy becos hmmmm something happened to him... I have told him to relax as life isn't a bed of roses :) O yea... I tin goin for new hairstyle, fashionstyle and new lifestyle... bob with brown highlight, wear dress more wahahaha and lesser clubbing... Saving for $$ for degree course as planning this year to further my study :P

nice ^@^

17 Jan 10

2010-01-13T23:02:00.000-08:00

abt a month didn't do my blogginG... I was so busy from Christmas to New Year... Finally grab some time for my Off day to do blogging. Alot of things happened recently, alot of mixed feeling from Chirstmas to New Year.... 3 weeks ago I was very angry abt something bt nw after cool dwn and found to pointless to hold on it... Every1 is wondering who is "He"??? rite?

wahahaha I can't disclose much information abt him as there are alot of things happened ard us so we wish to keep in low profile but we are happily tgt nw... Nt officially tgt like wat my cousin saying. He's old friends of mine and we are like flings from past which hmmmm long story... at least he understand me quite well... We will like knwing each other for 5 years... Time flies :p

dmn funny when he saw my daddy as he's over my hse... Super stone and behave lor... hahahaha today he also get out of office earlier to my hse to accompany me bt he's gotta to meet his clients for lunch so kind of rush... tired as I went out until very late yester nite like ard 6am...

He's sms me using watsapp... I can't heard it so u can imagine hw tired I'm... I'm shall take a nap first and my tongue is super painful... Dun feel like talking at all... sicking lo -_-

17 Dec 09

2009-12-17T04:59:00.000-08:00

As usual, we went dwn to DlbO yester... Drink abit more thn usual and get abit tipsy....

Tml we heading dwn to Rebel and Sayang still stuck in Paris... On her way bck to sg, Jason still on States flight and will be bck to Sg on midnite or tml morninG...

Upload pic time :D

13 Dec 09 - Lunar gathering and head to Rebel

2009-12-13T03:14:00.000-08:00

my sweet Dar Dar

We went to lunar on 12 Dec 09 ard 10.30pm... there's much people tht time and we starting to take pics... Like flashing cam... Blur visions... very enjoyable gathering bt the singers is not so good as DF except one of male singer who have a good voice.

Bell started to tipsy and asking people to drink... (knw her 12 years, her style never changed lo) lol... We went off early ard 1am and I & Eunice felt heading to other plce to continue our party so we try out rebel...

OMG I'm nvr forget once we got it and music tht is spinning is really hot and nice... Even better than Bolier and tis first time Eunice told me tht she's tired of Dancing. JUst imagine how good is the plce, We gotta to knw tis gp of guys, Jason, Dennis and Roy who is super friendly and funny... Especially Jason who trying teasing me bt copycat my actions, I'm just can't stop laughing... Super Gayish Jason...

After the party, we head dwn to Spice to have some supper (but I just drink tea without any foods) I saw all the Double O waiters... Wooo somethin unexpecting :) it's joyful nite and definitely wanna to go agin to Rebel... after supper, I head bck hm and take a bath and head to work... in morning kena naggy by some1 lo... Is guys born in 70th is very naggy... Aiyo must kena sour thn stop... LOL

12 Dec 09 - SIA interview

2009-12-12T03:30:00.000-08:00

Woo today I wake up super early... I tin ard 7.30am, went for my preparation for SIA interview bt when I reach there ard 8.45am... OMG the Q is so long... imagine the meeting is at 325-326 and the Q was like until the other side of convention center. we will waiting for almost 6 hrs straight. Finally is my turn and I was super nervous... -_- first interview, nt much experience...

Well didn't put much hope in tis interview and as I expected, didn't manage to in.... LOL Sayang accompany me all the ways and she seen more nervous and disappointed thn me... Even Fabian also can tell it... Just let she's the 1 who is gg for interviews... hahaha later on we dwn to chk out SH iphone showrd and Sayang was like OMG, I definitely wanna it and surprising tht FB really get it for her... We went dwn to Singtel shop at Taka to her 16GB 3GS white iphone with her corporate plan... We are still arguing wherever wanna the mobile plan for 1GB or 10 GB with only $5 difference per mth... damn funny...FB ask his friend's Kevin for help for iphone stuff.

happy nw la Sayang, First 1 in our gang to get 3Gs white iphone LOL... better off frm them (Dun wanna to be light bulb) lol, bck hm to rest first, later head dwn to Lunar for Childhood sister Christmas gathering... Got hold the Christmas present, hope they like it ^^ chato

tis is some parts of it, I didn't manage to talk the pic after my interviews... at 2 pm the Q is still very long

OMG.... Scary le -_- look like some Singapore Idol Competition 2009

11 Dec 09

2009-12-11T04:16:00.000-08:00

today is my fucking Moody day... actually start of day not so bad but something happened and I tin I have acidentially hurt some1... Really sori abt wat I have done and I have ask for ur forgiven...

Bt wat I dun like is be so called questioning by some stupid assholes abt wat I wrote in FB... I didn't even mention abt things abt being bug by u or anything... I justdun like you talk abt it sound so easily, be saying sori must be trueful and sincerity and I dun feel it at all. anyway, I dun bother abt it...

Just nw when Nick send me hm, he have talk alot of senses to me... I'm totally agree abt wat he's said... If he think like tis, let him be... Dun bother abt him as he dun really understand you at all... wat's really coming my mind... Thk Nick, u still my best buddy of all... I felt so bad tht I have to leave the Company as I told you, I'm gg for SIA interviews bt we still the best buddy? rite LOL

Well looking forward my results tml and I'm willing to share my joys to every1... Big celebration if I go thru the 3 interviews :) Anyway just went out with Eunice to some Japan Bar when we have chillout sessions, drinking and super long didn't sing Japanese songs... feeling so refreshing bt I was very tired as wake up so early tis morning for work... -_- bck hm now just write my blog to update my status. tata super tiring mod ~_~

10 dec 09

2009-12-10T05:32:00.000-08:00

I was MC for today becos was drinkinG too much yester by all those TeQs... All thanks to Edmund Buddy and Gene... I'm gg scold them soon and seeing them nxt time, I'm gg run away LOL... well I'm done some really stupid yester, went dancing with Tony and he sent me bck hm. We have some talks in car and my hse dwnstair, the impressions of his to me change quite alot...

Maybe he's just be friendly to all gals which in eyes of other look very flirt... I also dunno!!! luckily didn't end up anythin with him... We are quite a distance so still feel okie... some1 saw my msn nick, thought I'm refering to him. Come on tht nickname is refer bck to my colleague, Nick. Very nice guy tht we knw each other for a year... He also dun club so we seldom talk bt just a Hi & Bye friends... Until recently when we have company gathering, we finally got chances to talk and we hit rite there... Went to gym with him yester nite and super shag alrea...

4 Dec 09

2009-12-04T05:19:00.000-08:00

It's a Friday nite and I'm stay at home.... Too tired as I was out for continuing 2 days... As usual on Wed I went party until morning and go straight to work... Thur Celine Sayang just came back from flight and we met up at Suntec for wine drinking... Have some gal talks things...

Updating her tht I &KJ have broke off... Nonono we didn't even start so wat to say tht we broke off :( Agin I hate myself to fall for this type of guys... Players & I shall have enu for all this... later part we starting to laugh like shit when fabian photos tht she show me!!! Mr robinhood U DID A GD JOBS.... LOL I went to SIA career website and they have open interview on 12 Dec 09...

I'm so excited and nervous abt this... This time round I must and will go for it as I wanna to explore the world outside sg... Open my mind and eyes... Seeing things very much differently... Thank Jerlyn, Celine, Regine and Eunice for staying by my side when I need you gals the most... Our friendship will last thru our life :)

I still feel regretted and guility to hurt JiaQi in the past... He's still the best bf I even have and I dun think any man can treasure and love me as wat he did in past... I'm so sorry abt it... ;(

If you ask me what am I thinking nw? Well I did miss KJ... It's more like a habit to sms him bt after all things he did to me. I have reserved toward him and I wanna stay out of him... I will cut dwn goin dwn DlbO in future as I have to plan for some stuff... Counting 7 days for SIA interviews and I'm getting more & more nervous each day... Sayang promise me to accompan me to interviews... It's like 9 - 2pm on 12 Dec and I still plan wat's to wear? O yea, I need to go take 2 passport photos... Rizal's encouraging me to go for it and giving tips for the interviews... BIG THANKS RIZAL !!!

I'm just myself, Independant, peace-minded & rational... I dun really like to depend on guys but if I found tht special 1... I will be super depend on him... SearchinG in process but take it easy okie ^^

13 Nov 09

2009-11-13T05:48:00.000-08:00

it's Friday the 13th... OMG Dark Friday... well to work after 2 days off and super busy with work... so SUX with my jobs nw...

I was busy frm on Wednesday to now... I think I will be very very moody for tis week... I thought I can influence some1 tht close to me bt I was wrong... When he told me tht forget all the things he said on Wednesday nite in dlbO when he's drunk. I was so so so disappointed...

It's just a one-side game that we are playing. Just waiting who is the one tht wanna to backout frm the game. Hmmmm once you told me that you wish to try out and if my heart is still have Mitch. You will just wanna to be friends and I have give it a serious thoughts. Ok Let give it a try but now I'm regretted it as I knw you will never forget ur ex and I will not wish to some1 replace or been used by you to forget some1. I knw you are trying very hard but I just can't step into ur heart when you blocking me frm you...

Maybe you knw tht we dun really suitable... I need some1 tht mentally prepare to being with me and you are not... I will keep my promises that I will wait for ur answers when you are back frm trip so 2 days to go...

Maybe I shall redraw my feeling frm toward you, dun contact you, dun return ur calls... MIA for awhile of time, sort out my feelings thn be friends as I have plan at first. So many of my friends warned me but I just not hearing their advises... I wanna to be rational, be a good ending toward us as I think I'm dun stand much special position in ur heart... it's just a feeling and I think my feeling shall be accurate... WAKE UP SERENE, IT'S ENOUGH FOR YOU FRM ALL THOSE SHITS...

Can't you see and learn from pasts, you dun need to get hurt if you knw he's tht kind of guys... Understand lovely Serene... Pouring out my feeling make me have a clearer views... analyse different options... Even he's seeing my blog and knw abt it... I think he have the rights to knw tht too... I' m tired... very Tired abt all tis... Going to slp soon... nite nite

6 Nov 2009

2009-11-06T09:37:00.000-08:00

I was so fustrated today.... some1 just dunno hw the shit's gg on.... If you meant to be sound like some1 wanna to be stable and serious.. You will never think of gg out clubbing like tis... this is wat's normal gal would said.

I can relax in some1 and I can be be turning blind if it's not of reach my limition. U said that you wanna to study and I make efforts of meeting you and pop out tht you wanna to go with ur friends (guys and gal friends who wherever who ask you out, I was too angry to ask) wat u think abt ur studies and me? You are just not ready for any serious r/s.... I'm kind of sick and tired abt all this stuffs and I feel tht you testing my limits...

it's getting me really really kind of like giving up as even thought we are officially or not officially not bf or gf... I'm just telling myself tht sayang tolfd tht not to put so much feeling as she's knw u as a players bt I just wanna to give a shot. Shall we be wat have begun as FWB as proceed on BGR? I really dunno and I dun have the faiths to do so as god knw wat's I really wanna...

If you really bothering abt me and saw wat's I writing on my blog. Pls reflected urself and get urself clean up. I'm just giving us 1 last chance and if can't wk out and I'm totally given up... Dun waste my time even it's painful to me & we shall be together if I knw tht I'm will be serious abt tis r/s? I'm just ask troubles for myself... dar is accompan and i'm thkful tht she's here... thk dar for my nagging

03 Oct 2009

2009-10-03T06:38:00.000-07:00

this is first blog I even blogged after stop writing for a few mths. Today I'm super moody.
Rem I told tht I have a bf who called Thomas before I was celebrating my bd. He went MIA. He's bck in sg and he contacted me. We went together bt you knw he just complained to me tht he's like label bf (sound to be my bf) so I'm trying my best to meet him to improve our r/s but things turned really bad. Either is tht he's not free (sound like make exceises) or I'm not free. last few days. he was like wking like hell so I just sms him to rest as I'm be considering and caring gf of his. (becos he's saying he's very tiring)

you knw wat turn out, he's just go out with his coworker and call me up in 5am (which I'm in sleep and I'm wk early tis morning) I was like preparing myself to wait for him to come over thn he just sms he's gg dwn office straight ahead. WTF he's think who he's??? I really have enough of him, he's bo chap abt this r/s and wanna me to appear whenever he's need me.

I just sms him and told him tht we's not suitable and the best to be gd friends. He's totally agreed abt it. He's just dunno wat's hell his faults... I can tell tht if he's gg keep this attitudes, non of his r/s turn out gd. Well I'm ok with it as Mitchell is coming sg... Some1 I have in love with for a year.

If mitchell is staying in sg, we have already turn out to be couple and happy ending. In life, things just don't turn out the ways you wish too and expected too. HAiz I was so angry and disappointed today tht I pick my smoking agin. Oshit... Damn it

wat's a moody day... hopefully tml will be better. ^^

super long didn't blog lo

2009-07-14T06:24:00.000-07:00

wooo it's like 3 mths didn't blogging alrea. some of m friends asking me why I didn't blog nwaday... tOOO busy for my work man... somemore I have check my workplce emails when I'm bck hm. Almost everyday OT for this past month as I'm planning my oversea on this end of month July 26... must save some $$ also. hunger for a break to rest my body... flights have alrea booked and gg with Dar Dar but she will not be staying with me in hotel as she will staying w her bf la (buddy lo) this holiday suppose my runaway. it's become her honeymoon break.

I just celebrated my bd on 4 july... not much interesting as like older by 1 year. after my holiday thn I need to take leave for Sayang wedding on 9 sept 09 (09.09.09) I'm best woman agin... aiyo dunno can get married asi also lost count of times be best woman.

I'm so happy for you sayang... but Desmond sure very very very poor things as we sapo him until can't make it. hahahaha

I'm meeting eunice later for some wine drinking in wine connection. cheer with cheese Yummy... gotta go. tata

26 April 09

2009-04-27T06:02:00.001-07:00

OMG.... it's so damn fun on sat when it's Wawa (Desmond) birthdaY...

alot of his friends came and even a very long no see friends did came..

We have great fun by then and Sayang and regine were tripy by then...

I manage to escape frm their fury asking for being drunk... hahahaha

LOL you knw wat I meant. any happy birthdaY Desmond... Manage to

upload the pics faster thn I thought. Enjoy ^@^

Demond was luckily tht only cream on face man....

it's too bad tht lover can't make it or it's would be even more fun ^@^

23 April 09

2009-04-22T08:35:00.000-07:00

So sori I was so So so busy tht I can't blog so much nwaday.... finally get myself a off day after 9 continuing wking days... super tiring... I have planned abt what I need to do tml...

1) do my hsewk - tht's for sure
2) get some shopping for my clothes and stuffs in Chinatown
3) get dwn to bookstore for my New Moon ( by Stephenie Meyer) finally gt back my story frm Genald (Twillight)
4) get the story bk from Angel (hopefully she available in evening)
5) do some jogging in late eveninG (just recover frm my bodyaches frm last week jogging)

it's damn long time didn't jog and my body is really showing signs man... Jiayou
O yeah this coming sat is Desmond's birthdaY so Sayang ask me to book 2 tables for them. (DONE)

I think there is nothin I miss out. Still consider wherever I changing my shift to C shift. Hmmmm (shall I???) still gt time to consider it ^^

10 April 09

2009-04-10T06:54:00.000-07:00

well today is a raining daY for whole aftern to evening so I stuck in office even I'm off wk.
yester angel sms tht wherever I want to get my story bks frm some1 (I dun wish to mention who he's) thn I said tht I want to becos Eunice want to read the story and I need to collect the whole series of Twilight story books. I'm was sound aslp when Alvin called me wherever I'm gg out. Damn it, I alrea slping and been woke up by calls and sms.

Nxt time must off hp, mitchell just came bck frm ship to his apmt. They are like having so much fun in the apmt..... sO envy -_- we have gd talk in msn and he promise tht he accompany me for sunbathing once he pull dwn to sg... nt sure abt the date so have to wait for it... dO some editing for some of photos I took in past so preparing for Sayang wedding dinner for movie making.... OMG must edit nice man.... tired alrea, gg to slp. nite nite ^^

07 April 09

2009-04-07T07:01:00.000-07:00

WooO so long didn't do blogging in my blog. sO busy with my work... actually busy gg out with friends - with my new buddy Edmund Lee (sound like amily rite) hahaha thn colleagues la to DF la. That's nite is Nick - night shift colleague. (I think same age with me ba) We drank like nobody businese but I gtta go off early as tml gtta wake up early for work. sO saD -_-

recently so fancy abt David Cook's albums. Especially he sung Always be my Baby. Very unqiue, deep and sexy voices for a guy.... simple love it ^^O yeah shushu is joining me and Dar Dar (regine) to Jb for shopping and Seafood nxt Mon.... Yummy Malaysia here's we go...

Haiz sOmetime when I walk bck hm frm the bus near my hse - still hoping tht red car will be at my hse dwnstair. I dunno really wat I really wan also - as shushu mention tht seen like I dun haf bf nw, I can excel my career and earn as much as possible.... I'm gg jogging every evening to lost some weights... Jiayou to 52 or 51 kgs by early May... I alrea 55 kgs lo but my process seen started to slow dwn. sO hot last week - can't tahan man. gg out for lunch is hell when it's in mid afternoon thn this few daYs keep raining. wat's gg on with weather :(

ok I gtg... Goin for lalala Land... very tired nw after my jogging in evening... Good nite ^^

24 Mar 09

2009-03-24T06:49:00.000-07:00

Just came bck frm work after OT for a few hours in work - abt 8 pm thn go off. Aiyo because of the new implement of new system, I have to handle all those stupid customers. Somemore I have to handling fax issues which have to do f/u with sub which is using the other platforms and having fax issues tht they can recieve fax but can't fax out. Basicly the xsl. file I' m the 1 tht handling it so I have to do f/u for all those cases.

Last sat actually I'm meeting Lover (jerlyn) but I was late. (becos of Alvin la) Lover said she's sick and need to sleep early. SoRi Lover, ask u out thn have to make u wait for so sO sO long. PS (do some reflections) Mitchell just came bck to JP so log in MSN, we have some casual talk before he log off (he's super tiring after weeks in ship and exercises with Korean Navy)

Haiz I thinking telling him e truth tht actually I gtta myself a bf in this period of time but he need to go off for sleep sO end story tht I didn't tell him. O_o
trying upload some pics into facebook, Mr Chin shu shu in my workplce thinking of organising some trip to JB nxt mth. Asking me wan to go or nt?? OF cos is a YES answer... ^^ thn must keep Dar Dar (Regine) update abt e date as we agree with each other tht we will drop by JB every mth for seafood and shopping. Hmmmm must see my timesheet for nxt mth, haven't out yet.

O yeah, this coming 9 April is passover day so I need to take off on tht day for some church celebration - Praying and celebration in evening thn Resurrection daY (10 April) is bread fasting for whole daY.
This is the first time I actually celebrating Rsurrection after I have convert into christian. It's must be a great week on 2rd week of April. ^^

18 Mar 09

2009-03-17T23:10:00.000-07:00

haiz..... 2 day ago go & drink coffee with Alvin. We have some talks at our hse dwnstair coffeeshop thn Alvin told me tht last 2 weeks ago he saw Genald in Boiler with another gal. When Genald saw Alvin, he's look dwn to flr and said somethin to tht gal & they rush into Bolier. After hearing this news, I was so disappointed to him.

Maybe I'm having all those six senses & I felt the changes in him. Tht's y i wan to break off with him. He's dong nasty things behind of me, thought tht he's nvr being caught in actions. Now actions speak loudly thn words and lies have to cover with more lies.

I can understand his situations but just told me e truth and I will leave this kind of stupid triangle r/s. I'm nt stupid in this ways to tagging on this kind of r/s. He have made our r/s turned bad to worse and I think tht I will just treated transparent if I even see him in street or anywhere.

I'm sick & tired of this kind of shit things & i shall end my feeling toward him. Although I will feel very sad nw but finally I gt e answer I want & tht's it.

JB trip

2009-03-12T00:41:00.000-07:00

Dar Dar and me went to JB city sqaure for shopping on tue but when we reach the malaysia new causepoint. we are lost as it's like so big and we walk into bus plaform area. Luckily regine got a personal information officer - Grace and we called her up for the directory guide.

finally reach city square -_-

yummy I'm eating mango and she eating mint ^^

101 rest located @ seatosa

we went to seatosa for seafood. Order crab, shark fin soup, veg and prawn. The food there is so yummy. Definately I will visit it agin on nxt mth ^^

Beer herbal prawn. Oyishi desu ^^

see the crab!!! as big as my hand o_O

reach sg ard 11pm, so tired but very filling

planning nxt mth gg dwn to JB agin..... see my timesheet O yeah :)

8 Mar 08

2009-03-08T05:41:00.000-07:00

Gathering of all ex and current starhub staffs. SHI & CTV

O shit today was bad day for me becos I fall sick and I still have to go work. luckily I did went to work becos there's shortage of manpw. I tin ard 10 people is wking and the number of call-in went up ard 60. OMG.
I need med oil and ate some medication thn take some rest when I having my lunch but the speed of my typing is so slowly thn my head is like going round and round. In aftern I recieve mitchell's emails tht brighter my days. He nw in Korea doing some excericses with korean Navy and will be bck to JP in 1 week time.

in a few mths time, he will droppin in sg, hopefully they can get out of ship which I think I will take leave for tht few days. Just be tour guide of his. Bring him ard sg, it's shall be fun by thn.

he just send me some pics of his. Update in blog ^^

he look so cute in this pc ^^

I also went out with my colleagues on sat nite. it's was a great gathering, some of them ex-starhub staffs and of cos there are staffs tht still wking over there. we went dwn to alley bar located in someset. i just upload some pics becos too many of them.

My ex sup bring along his daughter who is so cute ^^

4 Mar 09

2009-03-04T05:26:00.000-08:00

Haiz, Yester went out with Hiro and we went to Gyo Rest for yaki beef. After dinner I went bck hm straight, tml I'm off so planning out with Eunice. Yester nite I send a sms to Genald but until morning, I didn't recieve any sms reply frm him.

Finally I decided tht I want delete all his msgs tht he sent to me when we were dating and also his contract in my Sim and phone. Maybe I'm really give up on him. Jeremy ask me wherever I can be his gf which I think we really don't have chemical in between us. We can only be friends and I want make things clear to all those guys friends. Dun wish to ask troubles for myself & it takes time to know one's personality. Although I knw him quite long and well.

all I need now is my work & my study which start soon on Oct. by then I will be super busy as work and study in the same time. I feel so tired now..... abt all those BGR kind of things, it's like guessing game for bth parties & I really hate it. nt only in mentially and physically.

blogging my blog is my way to release my stress and a relfection of wat's I'm doing nw. hmmmm
sound very depress like tht, actually nt really ^^ take a rest in moment in order for myself to walk further in the future. take a step in cautious in order to understand people and yourself well.

2 Mar 09

2009-03-02T03:54:00.000-08:00

OOOoooo so sorry as I was so busy for past 2 weeks. ok finally is tht I'm planning for our company chillout with my TL (Liling who quite close to me) so actual plces have not cfm yet thn secondly is tht last Fri went dwn to st James bolier agin. As usual, I have to went off before 12 am as i gtta to wk nxt day.

In sat morning I was sO tired but quite busy for whole daY. workinG log getting more & more stressfuL & still considering gg other companies or stick with starhub. (I dun wish to work in the same depts)I finally gt my transmit frm np and scan to my agency for MDIS, Ryan. He still have send to Aus Uni for verification and see which modules I can do exemption. waitng waiting. O yeah I finally gt all pics we took 2 weeks ago when we went to boiler. Enjoy ^^

24 Feb 09

2009-02-24T04:50:00.000-08:00

haiz today gt alot of cases need to handle in office, somemore having some meeting with TL thn somemore need to rush to HR dept to handle some stuff. running up and dwn of building. John babe sms me suddenly, asking me to take care and I'm quite shocking abt it as u knw I didn't expecting him to read my blog.

He's sound like a advisior for me. hahaha Dun wori babe I'm oright. U knw me for so long time alrea, u knw tht I'm take things quite easy as wat's, especially in r/s. Just give me time to get over it. I'm won't rush in r/s as wat's I told u before. Thur gtta rush bck np to get my diploma cert as i need to submit my scanned copy to MDIS so tht they can sent to Edith Cowan Uni in Aust for chking. I shall be exempted for 1st year course.

I'm so excited abt it LOL as finally one step near to my dream. One of biggest dream is to get my degree Cert before I'm turn to 30 yrs old so by thn I'm finish e course I shall be turn 28. Second biggest dream is to save $$ to travel 7 wonders in e world. Hmmmm..... Jiayou LOL ^^
Heard Lover start work alrea so wish her gd gd luck in work. Let jiayou in our life. Sayang is in London so have to wait for her to come bck thn can call her. Zzzzz feel very tired nw, Slp early tonite.

Gd nite every1 ^^

22 Feb 09

2009-02-22T04:24:00.000-08:00

yester sat nite went out with Jerlyn (lover), her hubby Calvin, Sayang, Desmond, Jason and Alvin to st James boiler. I tin we reach there ard 9plus pm. As usual we sitting at table tht in front of stage. Drinking beer and I alrea drinking too much on Fri (went out with Hiro San to eat Masa San's plce to eat sushi and drink Shochu) I think I'm nt getting enu slp so get tripy very easily on Fri.

Well Sat nite we have great fun bt too bad tht I gtta wk early on Sun so go off ard 12am but I went out for awhile (until 3am thn reach hm) this morning wake up ard 6.30am and nw whole bosy is so bodyaches.

Working like hell in wking plce and bought cans of redbull to bull myself up man. -_- Wed I'm off so I think tht I will be meeting Jessie, Eunice and Regine out for my gal nite agin. Destress gals nite. Let me think abt e plces we can go...... I haven't sms them abt e location we will meeting on wed nite. Thur is my off day too but I'm gg bck office to work as earning $$ is more important nw ^^

chking out plces I want to go for holiday for nxt few mths, I NEED A BREAK LOL
just a short trip ^^

20 feb 09

2009-02-19T23:54:00.000-08:00

WooO my sayang went to genting on valentines day. Luckily I'm gg my friends' party in Irish Bar located at MS. after 10 plus thn I went to meet Andy (any other friends of mine, it's nt hanjie) we went Harry Bar located Espan and chatting over. After drinking, he sent me hm.

Basisly he called me every nite and I'm kind of want make it clear to him as I can only be friends with him. Ask him stop calling me everyday in midnite. (I'm alrea aslp lo) This few days found something tht answer my questions tht I have doubt for last year.

I started to read all sms tht Gerald sent to me in past. All those memories are so special and yet so painful. I didn't told u guys tht I have returned his stuff to him and frm tht day onward, he also didn't bother to sms or call me anymore. I think it's quite clear cut for me and sometimes in night I do miss him. Look at e pics we have took in our short r/s. Every1 look so sweet & I do tear when I'm gg through those pics.

Does it's mean tht we have met e wrong timing or I haven't growup yet to handle all those stuff. My work stress is getting more & more heavier and I went hm straight after work. Even my off day, I'm staying hm to rest. I have just went to MBIS to lookout for my course (Bachelor of information Technology) Most important things is tht they have a\offer Microsoft Certified Systems Engineer 2003 which Microsoft is releasing 2008. i went through their open leature which i think i will have exempted frm 1st year Modules and went straight to 2nd year.
In total of 3 Years but i just need to take 2 years and hopefully things get on well.

11 feb 09

2009-02-11T05:35:00.000-08:00

WooO a tiring day bck today. sO much Xfiles need to handle for it so I stay to OT for another hr for another case in wk. after alot of consideration and attitudes tht Gerald gave me. I'm kind of giveup tis r/s. I really mean it as ytr he called me tht he have overslp becos he gt headaches thn we have a small in phone. it's just last for 5 mins which I also dun get an answer becos he need to get in TTSH for his work. ard 4pm he called up my hse number which I was so disappointed and shocked as he totally dunno tht's my hse number. (I have called him using my hse phone many times which he shall save in his hp)

I'm tired abt it all. I dun need an explaination, letting go would my best solution and I felt so much relaxing. Although I do miss him bt just tht I think once u miss e chance and moment I have gave him to explain everything. He dun give a damn abt it so DO I.

I just focus on my work nw and save my $$ for further study which I think gg for degree in MBIS. I can imagine my life after all. (super busy as jaka bth work and study) better plan nicely abt wat I wan nw. Fri meeting all kaki friends (sayang, wawa, jason, lover and calvin ) My valentine day will be celebrating with them. Hw a poor thing of me to be light bulb (hahahaha just kidding, dun be angry) I think I will go off ard 5.30pm as gt appt with them. No OT on Fri. see u guys love love u

6 feb 09

2009-02-06T05:51:00.000-08:00

today a super tiring day as went bck to woek after 2 days. Tons of works need to f/u. sobsob
-_- mitch is nw out in e sea. heard frm him tht he still in Nagasaki. poor thing tht he didn't pull out for some plces to drink. Just busy with his work, gym and study at board bt pretty sweet of his tht he would send me a email in a few days time to update me his current situation. i think suppose he gg pull out in korea and phil soon. thought this round he would in sg bt US navy cancel the planning bt he's promised me tht he gg take a vacation soon. Maybe drop in sg so I have to be ready to take leave for him. (tour guide by thn)

WooOO after 1 year, we still kp in contract and kp exchange emails, msn messenager and drop each other some pics. wondering tht we can be really gd friends as I do exchange some thoughts with him. ok take a gd rest tonite as I think tht I'm feel nt well this few days. chiong too much la.
Lover is so worry abt me whhich nt neccessary for it. As long as I have my work can alrea. it's tied me dwn and I gt so many gd friends. O yeah have told u tht regine finally gt a bf. hahahaha guess who is this??? my buddy eric (tht's guy u all saw in CNY celebration) I'm so happy for her, she have waiting for him for years (ex bf and gf la) nw they patchup agin. definately great things to celebrate abt it bt I will be lonely la becos she dun haf time for me. sobsob just kidding. :p

I went through e course available in local part time degree (SIM, PSB and MBIS) nt much courses I really interested except the degree of internet security in MBIS. I think I have to save more $$ for oversea study as I'm think the course for oversea is much more in variety. i think I need ard $50k in total for oversea in Aus. See wherever there's any bank loan available in such a big sum of $$. headaches nw -_-"

4 feb 09

2009-02-03T12:04:00.000-08:00

finally I told him my decision and even he's nt agree abt it. He really have nothing said abt it as I'm saying e truth. after CNY, I was so busy with work. Everyday working OT and even my off day I went bck to wk which my TL asking wat's gg on with me (kind of shocked abt my action) I just told him tht I want to save some $$ for my degree (which I gg for further my study in june/july) gt alot of plans ahead so taking steps by steps to fufill it.

this 2 weeks was really vey busy as CNY's celebration and alot of f/u in cases in my works. Works kp me busy frm thinking things. Some of friends said I look so cold abt tis r/s which nt really wat's in me. I'm kind of sad bt even force myself to follow his footsteps. I can get even more depress in future. end it fast could be my better solution. I just take my time to excel my career first. take things slower for r/s now as I'm really have no confidence in r/s. sound like i'm kind of sad bt I knw tht all my best friends will be myside when I'm need them. :)

22 Jan 09

2009-01-22T05:11:00.000-08:00

it's like tht I only free for once a week. For me, it's just the same bt yester nite went out with Regine & Eunice thn endup knw some guys. So funny is tht one of them is living near our hse (blk 27) which beside my blk. just kp in contract through sms.

Hw abt me and Genald??? He still so busy and dun really have time to accompany me. HaizzZZ it's like i need him, he's nt ard. I dun need him also nt ard. Hear frm him tht CNY he's gg bck to visit his parents. luckily I'm wking in bth days for CNY so won't be so lonely bt I will miss him definiately.

I dun knw wherever I shall break my decision to him before CNY or after CNY. I have made my decision tht we will just be friends as we neet the wrong time so I dun knw his decision bt I just wish to be alone as no need commitement.

17 Jan 2009

2009-01-17T06:39:00.000-08:00

WooO so tiring after been gg out with Sanyang and lover yester nite. (anyway they went to boiler) Sanyang still dun let me off when it's coming 12am (OMG I need to wake up @ 6.30am nxt morning) things turned out peaceful except some stupid cases in work I need to do some f/u.

well hw abt my relationship with my Bf (Genald)??? I just dunno wat to say abt it, maybe i just let it pass time like tht. Sanyang was so upset abt it when she read my blog. I'm fine Sanyang, it's just a relationship & I dun wish to fool ard becos I want revenge. If other party is some1 I like very much, I dun mind abt it kekekeke.

dun worry abt me, I learned to relax & take it easy. It's just a killing time game for me. hahaha ^^

6 Jan 09

2009-01-06T05:25:00.000-08:00

Yester mornin, finally genald contract me. He told me tht he gt drunk by his friends on 30 dec nite in seatosa and lost his hp. His mum fall sick suddenly in ipoh so he have to rush bck. I ask wherever he gt left some msg in my father (if I gt the wrong idea) thn u knw wat I gt the answer. it's nt for me bt the msg is very misleading and something is gg on.

the msg is like this :

hey I just done w my appt here n judt gt my phone charging nw. Yes should take e pill, I felt terrible over last nite... I'm sorry I shouldn't have crossed e line, knwing i could nvr afford e time to take care of a gf... it's wouldn't be fair 2 u w e kind of schedule i run. I can be ur best frien n clud buddy.

after i readed it over agin, I was very sure tht there's somethin gg on. I sms him to call after his wk at nite. i waited his call until 12+am. I was having some chat with regine at our HDB dwnstair HDB. I started out something gd and showing concerns abt his mum thn I was seriously ask him abt this.

Finally he admitted tht he kissed the gal, I told him off tht u nt respecting me as ur gf and u knw tht u gt gf and doing all this shit. I'm was talking in suckup way tht I will try to kiss other guys in front of him nxt time. let him knw wat's e taste of this feeling!!! I asked him tht when is tht happened & he explained tht he went with his polytechnic friends & get drunk agin. I told him off tht if u dun knw hw to drink, better watch out e amt u can take it. If u want to go with ur friends, let knw who & when. I wouldn't control u.

This round he's really betrayed my trust & I also dunno wherever I will trust him in future or nt. Too bad tht I'm very smart as a gf & I'm very observed with changes. If he think he can fool me like this, he was wrong. I have plenty of suitors, with or w/o him. doesn't a matter for me becos I have learned tht if he's urs, he will be urs. I won't throw temper like b4 and even nw when I'm talking with him phone last night, I was extremely cool tone. Was I'm nt normal???

4 Jan 09

2009-01-04T03:10:00.000-08:00

5 days frm e day he didn't contact me. I saw the msg tht he stored inside my father (becos I lend him my father's mobile), it's really such a great impact on me. I was in shocked tht this day came so fast. He said tht he didn't have much time for a gf and shouldn't cross the line. He ask wherever we can be gd frien or club buddies by future. If he send this msg to me, I will respect his decision bt his action in MIA (nt contact me at all & leave me w/o any notification).

It's really irresponsible and never really consider my feeling. I'm really having hard time to get over it for past few days, I was almost broke dwn ytr in mrt when I'm heard songs tht remind of him. Crying sliently in mrt, covered my eyes using my hand. This is first time I ever done this kind of thing. even my off days, I'm prefer to stay @ hm rest and nt gg out to relax myself.

I just need to relax myself in nxt few mths and forget abt this thing. Angel ask if he come bck to me, will I forgive him? I would only said tht when the special moment is over, no matter hw hard u try. it's no long be same. history repeat itself so I'm nt giving myself false hope anymore .

becos inside i alrea have this feeling tht we bth are nt close in mentally. I told him abt this bt he disagree it bt facts show everythin so now ther's no meaning to persist who right or wrong. I have to learn 2be single agin. Let time heal everything

1 Jan 2009

2008-12-31T23:32:00.000-08:00

it was lonely night yesterday even I have told him (Dear Dear) to accompany me and hinted tht I'm lonely bt couldn't get him frm ytr night until now. His hp is off agin haiz. Sometimes I'm wondering tht he just can't balance his job with his personal life and he kp saying tht he need some1 to take care of him. he need me bt he didn't give me the time and opportunities.

Leaving me alone celebrating w friends tht just knw. Even yester when I saw couples walking in streets in 2 hands holding tightly. The feeling is unbearable and lonely..... I felt like crying in night bt it's New Year and I don't wish to spoilt my mood.

I knw tht he's could be a very gd hubby bt he's couldn't make me feel tht I'm important in his life, some1 tht u could lose out and get it anyway. E feeling is even stronger by time and I'm really wish to talk it out with him bt he's just dun time for me. If he think tht he's nt changing his attitude then it time for me to pass by him & go on with my life.

I don't wish to waste on this kind of issue, life w/o is hard bt I still get on with my life. See how it's gg on, I need a talk and it's must be a good talk. I really have to see when is he free???

update of the week

2008-12-28T04:16:00.000-08:00

SooO busy for past few weeks as I started my work in starhub. Everyday gtta to work up quite early (ard 7.30 am) so get nasty customers complaining everythin. (doing troublshooting in phone is tougher thn I thought) bt manage to overcome it at e moment.

O yeah, last Sun, Dear came to my hse for winter dinner (canto practice to celebrate) I do the cooking as my parents were so busy play MJ. it's was my neph's bd too so celebrate at e same day.

My uncle kp complaining abt e deep fried prawn tht I have cooked so I just told him off tht nxt time u will do e cooking. Dear Dear tried my cooking, saying tht it's really nice & I felt pretty comforted by him.

after we went to vivo city for Yes Man, O dear I can told u tht it's worth e ticket. Dear kp laughing at e way until e show ended thn we headed back hm to rest.

For Christmas eve although dear have to headed hm early becos of his appt in morning bt we manage to spend e count dwn moment with him. This is our first christmas so I hope every christmas, he's there for me. Love u Dear.

andy, me and sanyang

Lover & her hubby calvin

Dear & me

finally sort e problem

2008-12-16T06:47:00.000-08:00

I finally find out wat e problem. it's his hp which he lost his charger for his nokia. I manage to replaced my extra phone for him. I'm kind of angry with hhim as he didn't bother to let me knw. thought tht he can sort his problem. At e end of story, things got done when there're extra help hands.

Just dunno wat he think ;(

O yeah, he also cut his hair today, I was in shocked in seeing it. He look so young by thn & like I'm was older then him bt in fact tht he's older than me 2 years (27 yrs old)

So sad abt it

2008-12-13T02:47:00.000-08:00

lately I felt tht he's getting more & more worse. We bth dun haf time to meet each other and I expecting to talk awhile in phone but his hp kp low bat & he just forget to chrg his Hp.

This continuing for many times, I doubt tht he's making efforts of maintain this r/s. I was so sad ytr nite tht I sms him this msg:

I'm gg hm nw. I tin u forgot 2 chrg ur hp agin. Haiz Dear sometimes I felt tht it's very difficult 4 us to maintain our r/s. Seen tht we bth dun have time.

until now. it's half a day passed & he didn't even sms or called to ask abt tis thing. I'm lost faith in tis r/s & I'm really dunno wat he's doing outside. There are so much confusing facts surrounding us & if he's kp gg on like tis.

I have to give up tis r/s. He's nt giving his best & I can't chnge him w/o his willingness.

Haiz too buz tis week

2008-12-05T21:52:00.000-08:00

I was too buz for tis past week and didn't have time for my Dear Dear (Genald) I'm haven't seen him for a week. I felt so awful just to talk in phone and wish to meet him if I can but he too was very buz with his work. (apt for kids)

Haiz wat to do but at least he make sure to give a call to me. Updating me his current situation and me too update him my training procedures. last week I have to retest as I make too much careless mistakes. This time is system training for Onxy & falcon. Hopefully everything turn out gd for nxt tue when I'm gt back my test paper.

Mon is Haji so Dear is work in aftern shift and I want him to accompan me. kekekeke. Pretty wish tht he can spend more time with me as if I'm gg back to call-operation. Life there sure is not easy for me.

I heard tht it's quite stressful over there and no. of survicors are not much. Haiz...... pretty nervious and stressful.

last sat outing

2008-11-29T18:42:00.000-08:00

I went out for dinner with my friends and after tht Dear Dear come and pick me up @ central. We went to meet Sanyang and Desmond. We went dwn to BullDog @ serag. pretty gd plces to chill-out as there are many outdr pubs. Sung a few English songs but can see tht Dear is very tired so We went off early. KeKeKe Muacks

Love u Dear

sat nite

2008-11-10T06:16:00.001-08:00

last sat we went for movie and after went dwn to St James Boiler. Pretty fun to hand ard...

So long didn't meet some1 like him lor, being with him is so sweet and he really care for me alot.

Just get sore thoat and cough. Pretty serious now. this month I'm gg for interview for SIA crew, Hope I can get into SIA. wish me good luck ^^

Poor things

2008-11-06T05:33:00.000-08:00

yesterday nite we did some sms when I'm working in pub. He gotta off work at 10pm so we have to do our sms after 10pm. Poor thing, he waited for me for whole nite and picked me up at 2.30am.

I already told him off tht dun picked me up as I will be very late off work but he just dun listen to me. He stay over at my hse yesternite and sent my parents to work. To be true tht it's been long that I have ever met such a good guy and he really treasure me alot and treated really very nice. Being with him, I feel very Xin Fu and knw tht he really love me for who I'm.

This time ard, I must treasure tis R/S and dun play ard lor. It's really stupid to do all those stuff. Love u dear dear Genald ^^

Surprise updating

2008-11-04T08:04:00.000-08:00

I'm gg to quit the nite job as it's quite exhausing for. OK ok ok I knw tht u guys must be wondering hw I'm gg on with recently. I'm getting involve with one guy, his name is Genald. Very innocent guy who is very sweet and nice to me, finally I can be serious some1. He's like those very innocent in look bt noti in nature. kekekeeke u knw wat I meant.

We are getting very well at e moment as sometimes he will pick me up for lunch when I'm workin in bank. Very gentleman and young looking, some of my friends thought that he's onli 24 yr olds. hahaha guess wrongly, he's 27 this years round. Be patiently, I will bring him out for our outing some day.

recently

2008-10-23T07:53:00.000-07:00

recently getting more and more crazy abt sun tanniing but past few weeks, sg kp raining. I onli free on Sun so this coming Regine, Thomas, Jessie and me planning for sentosa for sun tanning. Hopefully it will be sunny Sunday.

I went through job DB, jobStreet and job central. Nt much gd job offering. Just take my time to look for permenant jobs.

Jer's Lover ROM

2008-10-17T21:36:00.000-07:00

Finally I'm free for this weekend, I was tied up by works for this past week and unable to post all pics I took in Jer's ROM. Well I would said that I was so happi for Jer and Calvin so now I called them Mr and Mrs Chan. hahaha

things turned out quite busy and Sayang and me help out alot for jer but of cos it's worth for it as she was so beautiful on that day.

quite strange....

2008-10-05T02:33:00.000-07:00

Peter keep meeting me for this few weeks like almost every week and basicly introduce all his good friends in sg to me.

Pretty strange for me as we agree to be lover at the moment but he's treated me like his gf but I'm thankful that I met him.

He's pretty sweet in most time and understanding me quite well, I'm wondering that wherever I'm shall be serious or talk it out with him. He have flights to HK for this few days (he's a pilot) so I have wait for him to come back first.

F1 on sun

2008-10-01T05:28:00.000-07:00

I went to F1 race on sun as I was invited for their sponsor SHELL's private party and I was so shocked
with the race. Now I knw y people are crazy abt F1 and the sound for the F1 cars were so exciting and awful. my gooseberries all came up. The speeds was like 300km/hr, I just love it

Weiling Wedding 31 Aug 2008

2008-09-05T22:06:00.000-07:00

I was one of bride of honor of Fynn (Weiling) wedding. it's damn fun and sporty for Kevin's best men. We think of so much ideas like eating put alot of wasabi noodle (super hot man), black Beer mixed with 3 raw eggs, wearing disposible underwear, singing love songs and licking pepper over some part of body of best men.

I can told one thing that they are most sporty best men I have even came through. definitely greatest bride of honor I have even attended. At nite, I'm bring along Peter to Chinese Wedding and it's was his first time attended chinese wedding. He love it as in our table is totally troublemaker as we mixed extra too much drinks for Kevin and his best men to drink it.

I can tell is that IT"S LOOK SUX AND TASTE EVEN MORE SUX!!! hahahaha -_-

well, we do have great nite and lastly congrat Fynn that she found her true love :)

Jiaying's mum attending with us!!!

this is babe Peter, he's look very tall!!! (He's tall, hahaha)

that's she who has been around in all my life. 4ever lover, best friend and childhood friend

third day of my wk in HSBC

2008-09-02T07:16:00.000-07:00

well, it's tiring and busy daY as I'm need wake up 7 am every daY and OT almost everydaY but it's is a very challeage & good experience in wking HSBC. My dept is at card marketing dept as I'm handling backend support for credit cards.

last sun just attend weiling's wedding and I'm bought along babe Peter with me. update u guys more newest news. ^@^

finally saYang post all e pics

2008-09-02T06:59:00.000-07:00

last mth, saYang was celebrating her bd in st james. I went there after work and it's great nite, saYang belated birthdaY, must wear e clothes we bought 4 u ok!!! ^^

white wine, my all time favourite

toast for ur gd health saYang

cheer babes

took in shock

ther we go agin

OMG, are we les???

sO cute babes

OMG it's national daY

2008-08-11T11:39:00.000-07:00

Singapore national daY 09/08/08, I went out with saYang and wawa thn later lover came along with her BF. we went to long john sliver and head dwn to st James boiler. it's been long time that I actually step into St James. we have a great nite in ther, drinking chivas and later order a red wine.

the red wine taste sux.... regretted to order it.

took this in the ladies

who is stupid guy that have tis stupid mid-finger

finally it's look good ^^

they are the most important person in my life. thk god that I found u gals

almost in process of tripy

long time didn't meet them lor

just simply love them

sayanG I LOVE U

and later part I went up to stage for dance and sayang secertly took my pic when I was in stage So PS la. dun post ove my blog..... -_-

thk all you guys and gals, it's was a wonderful national celebration!!!!!

Finally

2008-08-10T09:07:00.000-07:00

todaY just msn with Mitch. I think that he will coming to sg earlier than I expected (I tin ard feb or Mar time) We have a very serious talk in msn. He sound jokes that he scare by the time he come to sg, I will be married and give birth a baby. hahahaha -_-

I told him why until now I'm still single is that I fall for him at e moment I met him so ask him dun wori abt it. I will wait for him and I make such an effort of gg to JP to meet him.

it's been long that I actually fall for some1 and this time, I really want try out for another type of r/s. I was so ease of worries becos I finally make up my mind tat I want a Western bf instead sg guy. Maybe they don't really suitable for me, I'm too freewill minded and they tend to control like hell which I won't like this at all. when I told sayang and Lover, they totally agree about my decision. keep u pals update with the outing I have for national day. BOILER man and it's been long that I step into boiler and it's darn fun man. JUST SIMPLY LOVE IT ^@^

projects and exams

2008-08-08T01:20:00.000-07:00

my presentation on 4Aug is really sux man, the IEA tutor was saying that our presentation is bad and ..... it's really saddered me as I dun expected that presentation is so bad.

haiz, my exam start soon on 19Aug to 21Aug 2008....

happY birthdaY jerlyn

2008-08-02T02:50:00.000-07:00

sO sori jerlyn my loveR.... I'm too busy tis few weeks as rushinG out my projects, tests and exams. I'm promised that I will meet u guys after my exam on 21 Aug 2008. I hope it le :P

still got 2 more weeks to go for my big exam cominG soon

2008-07-21T22:49:00.001-07:00

OMG now so nervous as my Final year and seminar examinations are coming soon in AUG time and we still rushing for last minutes completion of my IIP. everydaY staying at sch until 9pm and reach hm ard 10plus.

my life really sux as either working in weekends or studying in weekdaYs. I need a good break. Maybe drop by some neighbor countries for a short break like thailand, malaysia or ASEAN.

20/7/08

2008-07-20T08:03:00.000-07:00

it's seen long that I have blog in my blogger. my friends must be wondering hw have I been for tis past wks. I will so busy with my projects as my sch terms start and exam is ard the corner. haiz.... O yeah just post out my kimono dress for last few wks. njoy :)

I really love this picture with kimono wearing

one of my style

it's really tight over my upbody

and there's go!!! ^^

st james nite in last sat

2008-07-01T21:38:00.000-07:00

Lover, calvin and me went to St James last sat. My Dear also was there but I also dun care one. we went to bolier bt there were too many peoples and so PacKed. it's almost impossible for us to walk through sO we went to Power hse by thn.

I tin i'm too long didn't drink alrea so just few beers and I feel tripy lor. Really sux

izzit we look cute???

Two lovers at club
when I saw tis pic, I was in shocked. when I'm becum so slim

I'm sori!!! can u forgive me???

27 June 2008

2008-06-27T01:46:00.000-07:00

yesterday I went out with Mervlyn, one of my friend that I knw in friendster. hahaha we like wonder ard the Orchard rd near my wk plce (Paragoon and Taka). =p

later part, I ask him to go over tiong bahru Market to eat. I miss the food over ther and ard 9pm. We just went hm straight. Quite enjoying of being w him except that he's really a FISHING LOVER. hahahaha

we like toking abt my sch stuff as he's was studyin in np b4 and nw gg for Queenland soon in July 8. haiz got 2 miss him soon =(

O yeah, maybe u guy want to see who is he, ther will be a pic of his on below.
this's mervlyn

Mitch finally back to JP and he just send an email ytr morning when I'm having class. Miss him so much and he's just break a new that his cousin have just married when he got back to State. I want some pics that he took in State and suppose have to wait another few days

23 June 2008

2008-06-23T09:27:00.000-07:00

todaY is my first day for school term start. Quite fun as we did very well for our presentation for Corp communication. Recently that just gt tis feeling that I'm so confusing abt e r/s with robin.

The more I knw him, e more I knw that he's nt e one for me. Tis feeling get stronger by days and I knw tis continuing on, I'm will getting more n more confused.

I dunno hw to break the news to him. today just watch movie (u dun wish to mess with Zohan) and it's really a fun show to watch. Dun mind introduce to my friends.

12 June 2008

2008-06-11T22:59:00.000-07:00

drinking and eatinG in cafe in Great world city

my Dear Dear, Love him so much

so bored at his car

he on his dvd player to let me watch movie while waiting for him. So sweet of his

my childhood friends Eunice

she's the best, knw each other for more than 10 years

We share joys and woes together for many years

u see that she was tripy that nite

Happy birthday Eunice. LOve u so Much. Ytr nite was so fun in Dlb O, hahahaha
Nvr expected to see Jackson and benny agin over. Damn fun to play ard w them bt ltr go back hm, Dear Dear call me as he was so worri abt me lol =p

suppose to meet him today bt he was so tired becos he went to malaysia agin, to cut hair so I also dun wan to meet him lor. let him rest as i also dun have a gd rest tis morning. See the Korean Drama (The Legend)until morning. Still gt 2 more DVDs to go so JiaYou.

Tue after send my father to see doc, Dear fetch me to go eat dinner. I was so scared that nite when my father called to see him to see doc bt it's ok as Dear Dear was by my side that nite. tk u dear

Soon, Dear birthday is coming (18 June) so lucky that I was still having holiday that time so can plan for his birthday celebration. I tin I beta be ard that nite as for sure that he will be drunk if he wan to celebrate his birthday w his campmates n gd friens. haiz nanny in action agin.

O yeah last paper for my Common test - 6 Jun 2008

2008-06-06T05:03:00.000-07:00

Today is my last paper for MIS, damn easy lor for tis paper. I tin the most difficult is IES. In total of 7 leatures bt still can manage it, I tin shall have np in passing all my common tests.

after took up my job in M1, I tin I can save some money by stop go clubbin for my JP trip. Aug is weiling weddin and I have to maid of honor bt i have to do it more thn 3 times lor. I also dun care one as I'm christian so dun believe in it.

I have to take off on last week of Aug - Sun as I have to be sis for my childhood friends Weiling. I'm very happi w her that she have found her dream hubby and they make a lovely couple. I will update u guys the latest news abt e wedding :)

I wonder when is my turn??? hahaha i tin at current situation, find a bf first la. hahaha tis's my first time that kp myself single for so long. I tin ard 3 mths that I'm last broke off w kendrick. Life's nt so bad nw as wkday busy w sch stuff and wkends busy w job in M1. I'm saving money for my trip in JP and it's so exciting nw bt I scare that if I gg for job interview for SIA crew, they will start their training in Oct which I can't go for oversea trip by thn. O yup, I have much weight nw, my weight go to 56 kgs and still gt 3 more kgs to my target weight. Jiayou Serene.

Tml I maybe meeting My bro ben in boat quay ktv pub, if too tired thn I nt gg out lor :)

2 June 2008

2008-06-02T04:32:00.000-07:00

Today is my first paper for MEB, still ok with e paper. Tml is IES paper which I'm so scared abt e paper. Rei chiong watching EURO cup tis sat bt the matches end at 5am which I tin I can't make it as I nid 2 wk on sun mornin in M1. PS la, really cannt make it la.

So wkday matches I will watching soon. o yeah, I meet my TP friends in wkday nite for chilling out sessions. Most possible is Mr Bean there or some cafe near there.

Wednesday nite planning gg out w Eunice to DLB O. As usual, drinking sessions bt dunno Regine can make it on time or nt??? Life nw's so happening, gettin well w my life. Busy with wk (M1), free time go for sun tan and doing my project assignments. O shit, I still gt to do my SM interview with 1 sales manager. Dunno where to get it man. haiz, Must hunt for it. Haiz

1 June 2008

2008-06-01T08:11:00.000-07:00

tml is my first paper and I's like last min hug leg lor, rushing out all my notes in last min. sobsob

I wonder who is the person who leave a comment abt I meeting Mitch. Well to classified that I actually knw him in person, he's my friends' friend. Not some1 I knw in my space, facebook or etc. PLS do u tin I will be so stupid of gg JP just to meet him??? kekekeke so funny, i wan to Osaka for my gradation holiday trip, just to relax myself and all my ganf of friends are going. PARTY TIME WooO

Just happened that he promise to be my tour guide and he can onli exchange emails becos he's in ship and they do not allow msn or skynet. haiz... Dunno who that person who jump into conclusion when he/she dunno nothin abt wat have happened.

So sad to see that, Jerlyn Loverr and Sayang were so busy and so do I. My m1 job have kping me in tight time and ever dun haf time to relax myself. I really nid a break in my 2 weeks holiday. Sun tan firstly, swimming later thn foods at nite. O yeah, Ray is wking in seatosa, can ask him to fetch me after my sun tan. Lovely idea. I need to go and study, good luck to my friends who graab their last mins to study :)

30 May 2008

2008-05-30T05:27:00.000-07:00

Woo wednesday I was like headwire lor, one person go to dlb O n drink. luckly saw Juna my gal friend over ther so nt so lonely. I was super bad mood becos Kendrick said some words that very disgu lor. haiz why all couple after broke off, must end up like that le. Even I dun have the intend of lossing tis friend.

Eunice last min came n join me, hahahaha so fun thn I get knw tis Australia born chinese, hahahaha, He's just xame back to sg for a yr. Well, u knw after few drinks, we become close bt dun get the wrong meaning of it OKie :) He send back me hm n his friend sent Eunice back.

He's driving one of my favouriate car, white Mitsubishi Lancer bt I dun tin we will contract each other as I told him lor. I dun like guys that r drunk thn saying that he like me alot and all tis kind of stupid stuff so this type of guys scared me off.

somemore i felt that we r totally different world people so I dun wan to engage into any r/s now as I planning of gg for SIA pilot program once I'm gradated. If been selected, I have go oversea for 1 and half year to take the pilot licence and under Australia or US training school. If now I have bf, sure quarrel one which i dun want. I wan really excel my career first b4 toking abt r/s.

anyway, I didn't grab any number frm him so if he really make a effort want to knw me, he knw my hse location. Ask him to wait for me at my hse dwnstair. hahahaha bt i sure he won't la so forget abt it. O yeah, ytr was my second day wking in M1, damn busy bt sure fun as we wk together in a team. i tin for nxt few mths, I will njoy my job in M1. kekekeke

New job today - 28 May 2008

2008-05-27T10:52:00.000-07:00

I start my new job in M1 today, damn tired bt very fun becos I learned alot of things for Handphones sets. I meet my Sec school mate Grandel who transfer out when he's in sec 2. He's my partner today so basisly he's my mentor lor.

Alot of stuff nid 2 do and time pass really fast in ther, My wking plce is located at Parogo, kekekeke very near my old wk place.(bth located at Orchard) tml have to rush my e-learning wk assignments out first thn do some revisions. At nite, I nid to go dwn zouk to find kendrick first, I nid to tok it out w him becos he's over doing it tis time round. after tis incident, I find out tht I'm no long can be friends w him becos he's such a selfish person. If he nt gg pay for the bill, I will ask frm his parents becos he's overdoing it.

haiz, why I met those guys are alway so asshole one ah???? Dunno why also??? I'm planning my vacation for JP in Nov so nw I must save $$ to go over JP. Maybe Osaka nd Yoshiyosha where i can meet Mitch over there. We still have exchange emails through personal email address and keep each other well-inform of each other most recent life procedures. He just gt back frm Phillipine to JP and have to pack his stuff back to his hse. Well, he's gg send me some of his pic he took in Jp so I hoping for his email everyday. Wo lau, u must be wondering rite, distance love???
No la, we r just friends and he's one a sweetest guy I ever met. Most of the US Navy guy won't make a effort of exchange mails with some1 they knw frm other countries and he did. I admit that he's really have the heart to do so and I willing to keep in contract w him.

even his mail stated that he's so hoping to send my mails everyday and he gg hawalli tis coming June to visit his friends and back to Fionea to visit his family so I asking his pictures that taken when he back to State. ^@^

confusing with so much things

2008-05-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

haiz, for tis past day. I have been keep thinking that is Robin suitable for me. He dun need commitement bt comparionship. I just hope for more thn comparionship and he's really dun haf time for me and I can feel tht we really nt suitable for each other. I just dunno hw to break the news to him and I'm so confusing w all stuff, Sick of guys n may stay in single in my life lor. LOL just kidding, at moment I just wan to be alone. Love my God, friends n family. that's all.

craypot rice (Yummy)

2008-05-22T07:03:00.000-07:00

On Mon, Sayang and Jason come and pick me up for ABC market for craypot rice. My sayang fell sick e nxt day, Poor gal. :)

I just keep seeing China earthquake and it's so poor things. More than 30K people are kill by tis earthquake and it's such an impact for me. May god bless all those who lose their families and home. Hope that they can get over it soon and never agin they shall experience agin.

Look like green bean ice bleeded rite (avocado juice)

hahaha when I'm become a cook???

my Sayang and me

my Dear (actually he dun wan to take pic becos he's nvr style his hair) hahaha

he send me for sch in morning :)

19 may 2008

2008-05-18T10:48:00.000-07:00

today I'm damn busy lor becos I need to rush out the masterpage of IIP project and it's driving me nut lor. Becos so long didn't touch Visual Studio, forget how to use. Managed to get back the old notes for MWA and managed to set up a homepage using VS. So tired now.

still gt other pages like about us, products description, registeration and etc haven't done yet. The most nut i tin is coding part and it's drive me crazy soon in June. Haiz -_-||| Dear just sms me that he will either pick me tml nite after my wk in Temasek Club for KJ or pick me up after my sch ard 5pm for movies or dinner. So happy :) tml nite need to rush back hm to do the MIS Msn chat documents, hope everythin go rite. Zzzz so tired nw so slp soon. Gd nite everybody!!! =D

14 may 2008 KTV

2008-05-15T07:43:00.000-07:00

today we went for KTV in Orchard party but b4 that we went for dinner in Parogone Sushi ten. Njoy the pic :)

sO big grp of peoples hahaha =p

snap shot of us

wat a VV!!!

sO act CuTe =D

she just can't stop singin ;p

who does i choose le???? hahaha

Jason acting cute in process hahahaha kekeke

They are really sporting bt too bad I have to study early tml so i have go off w my friends quite early that nite. it's so njoyble and love u guys =D

13 may 2008

2008-05-13T19:46:00.001-07:00

In night, Sayang, jason n me were to Puggol Park for some chatting and red wine drinking. It' being 5 yrs that I have ever went to there agin. The first time I went to Puggol park was w Jiaqi (he is one best bf I ever have and we being together for 6 yrs plus). That plce changed alot and now they have another outside area. Well we have a great nite and plannin for KTV tml in party world. See u guys :)

chicken steak (Yummy)

Jason :)

Red wine(it's tasty very smooth)

11 May 2008

2008-05-11T10:49:00.000-07:00

today i'm wking aftern shift in citibank and later at nite go movie my bro ben for Iron man. (finally manage to find some1 to accompany to watch that show) The show is great and i decided to but it's DVD for collection.

ah Dear called me in the mid of show, saying that he's gg dinner w his mum so as usual I have to hang up the phone lor. He's really a super gamer for CS lor, when i reach hm, msn him. He's still playing CS online. Slp early dear becos tml u gt2 wk full shift in ur airforce camp lor. Dunno u can tahan or nt :)

O yeah, finally gt the photo frm Edmund abt our outing in boiler on 9 May 2008. njoy pals, it's damn fun la. they r very sporting grp of people. Nxt time, shall ask them out for Ktv sessions lor becos I gt abit chiong until bored and tired alrea.

they are so sporting, just simple love them hahahaha

Alvin, he's a gd bro and friend of mine

nvr expected to saw my exschmate here. Angel and Jason

shima san - Japan football player (one of japanese guy I met in bolier, sittin nxt 2 our table)

they are my all time lover

labour day eve (thk angel for supply e pic, love U)

confusing, confusing so confusing nw

2008-05-10T04:39:00.000-07:00

Dunno how to do nw, I'm very confusing now, blog for the sick of blogging. Get to knw tis guy called R**** thn he will try hard to woo after me by thn. U knw me, I dun really like ah Beng kind of guys. Either he will change for me or i will choose other thn him.

bt his status abit awful and complex now. I also dunno wat to said and do???? Pls god tis is another test u given to me agin. See hw first la, if didn't work out thn said goodbye lor. wat to do, I dun like kp tagging on meaningless r/s with no fruit. haiz -_-||| Lover was very wori abt me and I knw wat to do. Dun wori, I will protect myself well enu. ^@^

even my feeling toward C**** still there bt i find it meaningless to wait for him becos he's nt truely love me so forget him lor. wat to do!!!! even the feeling toward him is serious and true. hahahaha

Still have to go on my life :)

wed nite is Zenzi bd

2008-05-08T09:28:00.000-07:00

we like gg to dlb O first for some drinks thn meet Calvin, Edmund and Jason in zouk. Zenzi came later to join us and she was like really njoying herself in Zouk becos it's her birthday.We like drinking alot of lambo, Mantini and it's Mambo nite on wed. dancing like music underground like that. hahahaha

they are kind of tripy hahaha

all time lambo drinks

nxt is their turn ^@^

she is at phone, O my god -_-|||

Our 3G (3 guidians) hahaha so act cute le

Group pic, they r so fun

agin once more time, pals

when i was smoking outside zouk, I saw daniel and kind of feeling stupid. He thought that I'm interested in him and I nvr said anything abt it before of him becos i alrea knw he's really a playboy and I hate playboy nw. it's feel shit after all. hahahaha ^^

I get to knw tis cute guy from US navy, he's so cute and sweet. We agreed that we meet out in Chinatown for dinner so we exchange email and contract. I thought he may not calling me bt he did. Very sweet of him ask me out for dinner in Chinatown for some chilli strayray and deep fried sotong. We like having a great nite, kp chatting some of plces he did went to. Like Thailand, Singapore, Malaysia and his main headquater in Japan Kyoto. hahaha damn funny nite out and I can tell u that he's really a very cute and sweetest guy I ever met. We promise that we keep in contract when he back to Japan tml nite and I'm planning gg Japan soon in Sept so we r planning to meet somewher in Tyoko.

izzit he's look cute, Sayang said he look very handsome if he have long hair

tis pic was took after our dinner in chinatown ^@^

MC for 3 days on

2008-05-07T02:41:00.000-07:00

The med doctor gave ytr was nt effective at all, I have to go over to polyclinic agin to see e doc agin and ask him to give me a stronger med. I hope tis med really worked.

later have to work on my assignents for tis wk and take a good rest for tis few days. My church members kp calling me and ask me why nt gg to church bt I'm was really sick for tis past days so I can't make it.

my laptop kp on having problems tis few days, I tin I gg to change my laptop into fujitsu brand. More lighter and duriable bt they are running vista which I dun like at all. I see wherever they can dwngrade the OS version to XP or nt. tml is zenzi birthday, Happy birthday Zenzi. ^^ There are some problems arised in my cousin, they finding new HDB so I still thinking finding my friends who are agents to look out for them. anything just give me a call, cousin, LOVE U ^@^

just nw, he sudden sms me ask me to take care, I was in shocked man. I thought he's still angry abt me. I tin e feeling for him is getting ligher by time, maybe I get over him faster than I thought. For some guys may tin i'm quite heartless bt those who knw well, they knw who I'm. when I tin tis r/s is nt suitable or impossible. I will get over it quite fast becos I tin i have to proceed on my life. Toward those whom I truely love still e same. O yeah, John work hard for ur papers for tis mth. I knw that u are having exams for ur Uni so dun disturb u first. After ur exam thn meet up for movies Okie ^@^

Well I have to said John is a very special friend of mine, kind of like confidiant. some1 that can shared secrets. Let me recap hw i knw him. hahahaha we knw each other through MoMo club. (we are dancing together in stage, damn funny lor kekeke) thn we kp contract frm 3 yrs ago until nw. JiaYOU John, I knw that u can make it ^^

sick for today

2008-05-06T00:30:00.000-07:00

I can't wake up today becos my thoat was damn painful so gg 2 polyclinic take MC. PS Aven, can't meet u lut for lunch. maybe nxt time ^^ ytr nite too overstress with my proposal lor bt thk for my grp pals that make put in efforts in finish up pur proposals, u guys r great.

I hoping for my sun bathing for 19 May with friends, dunno my sanyang and lover will accompany me or nt??? I may ask my schmate friend to go also, hahaha see he's free or nt. let u knw agin. Introduce him to u gals. Very nice friend to knw also. So long didn't see him lor, for like said 9 yrs, Stepher. We like contract with each other after our gradation from Nan Hua Sec.

I was invited for an outing with sayang and jerlyn bt I will gg off early becos nt feeling too well tis past few days. -_-||| I hope my sickness get over faster. hahaha LOVE U GALS

they are my all time fovouriate ^^

Mon - 5 May 2008

2008-05-05T04:12:00.000-07:00

Damn tired lor, I kp wake and fall aslp for a few times in e morning. ytr i went to slp quite early thn wake up at 5am, nxt is 9am thn finally 11am. tis few days was too hot and I'm really have on my air-con. Aven just came back frm KL trip, sms me that he will be joining me in sch for lunch tml. I wonder if he will kp his promise or nt. kekekeke SorI Aven :P

I'm now rushing my report proposals for my intergiated projects and I'm running out of ideas. JiaYing was like just briefly told me how's her business operation. Holy mother, pls help me. Nxt wk, I need to go ICA building to do my new I/C. I tin my 100 bucks gg to fly awy lor, yesterday have a good talk with kendrick (my ex) abt the sms he send me. Kind of sad that we turned out to be like tis bt life still went on like that. I wish to be gd friends of his for lifetime. Jerly is in chatlet today so we can chat online, Sayang is coming frm London tonite. hahahaha Gal msn chat tml nite. LOVE U GALS I just went through tis video named freedom writers, it's so moved and emotion. ALL U guys must go and watch. VERY nice songs abt the racial in US ard 1990.

Movie day ^^

2008-05-04T06:05:00.000-07:00

Today went out with buddy for movie, DOOMSDAY. I can tell u that tis movie is like SAW 1 and 2, super bloody bt damn funny also. I dun tin it's worth for tickets. I nvr realise that nw watching movie on wkends can be expensive. $10.50 per ticket, super X lor. -_-||| today I have make some1 very upset and I tin he really fuss off, So sori ok. C**** forgive me as I doesn't mean it anyway. I nvr intend of making u as a bad man. maybe u will read my blog or dun read it anymore. I just have to said that I'm sori. maybe u dun wish to contract me agin. I dunno and I dun wish to make a wild guess agin for goodness sick.

Kendrick sms in the morning today, saying that he saw Andy in zouk and Andy saying that I wrote some stuff in my friendster abt our breakup. He's damn shit lor, even he's one of e guys that hurt me e most. I'm been forgiving for Andy and treat him as friends bt y does he (Andy) kp on finding troubles for me. I really dunno wat to said to Kendrick and I find it pointless to pinpoint any1 becos I'm too is a bad bad gal. -_- alway make people angry -_-;

I just recieve my good sister sms that she's gg to get married on mid-Aug and I have really save alot of $$ for Aug and Sept as Weiling is marry in Aug and Joanne gal is marry on Sept. Somemore I need to find partner to accompany me for wedding dinner or I shall be gg alone for tis 2 wedding dinner. :)

Just nw in the car, buddy is so funny, ask me to introduce some gals friends as friends bt nt ready for serious r/s for nxt few years. hahaha I'm kp laugh until e max, knw him frm 16 yrs old until nw. From Lover to good friend and now we r buddy. He's really make e efforts to share joys and sorrows with me. When I'm was in low periods, he's there and I'm joy, he's there. He's one of few guy friends that really understand me & care for me. I will reward u the best buddy medal and only U buddy Eric, kekekeke. ^@^ although I knw that u have went through alot of bad periods and I envy ur views toward life. Life is once and we shall enjoy and work hard tis life. take things nt for granted. tis's kind of life is wat I wan to becos I tin we kind of alike in certain views. Buddy telling me that he's gg repaint his car agin and I tin he's shall take it slowly by thn la. hahahaha

my buddy car (white Honda, damn difficult to drive)-thk U jerlyn for typo error

sat I was drinking at hm when dar dar ask me out 2 st james. I went 2 power hse until 5am hahahaha. so Long didn't go out w her lor and she's knw tht I'm very bad mood ytr. I LOVE DAR, U ARE E BEST. LOVE LOVE LOVE U ^@^

SHE IS ONE OF BIG LOVE IN MY LIFE, THK FOR EVRYTHIN & SORI IF I MAKE U ANGRY :)

the photograhic is stuck :P

kind of sad, kind of out-of-control

2008-05-03T09:26:00.000-07:00

Mother, I knw that u want me to faced my fears and I did bt nvr knw that e impacts was to deep to me. I nvr realise that I have fall for him, kind of deep. when I ask him that if I'm serious abt him thn wat would he do. God knw wat's his answer. He's just kp saying sori and kp saying that we have promised each other that we r more thn friends. I have nothing to said abt tis becos I tin he's really dun understand women. I knw that u r in pressure with gals and I have to agree in e first plce that we started out with more thn friends.

I want u bt I'm so afraid that u may ran away and u did nw. U said u r buz. I can tell u that I'm ever busier than u, I'm wking 2 jobs, studying as e same time and also I need to attend church stuffs. Who's busier than me bt I make an effort to sms u and show concerns. I tin if u really concern some1, no matter where and when a sms will solve everythin bt it's doesn't end up like that.

that's y I said that there' r some1 in ur mind and my guessing is correct. At least, I gt the answer that I want. Nt in kind of guessing that do u like me or treating me kind of fling. I dun like this kind of feeling and feeling shit. I understand that u r nt ready and u dun wish to discus abt it bt u have to come to understand that once the moment u have missed, that's no turning point. for any1 or me, still e same becos I decided to foreget u even hw hurtful is my heart. even I will cry everynite, even I will miss u everyday. I WILL FORGET ABT U. I have to move on becos I'm come to understand that u dun make any effort in engaging w me, to knw as wat I'm in reality life. Yeah, we shall be close friends and that's all.

I'm cutting gg dwn to St james nt becos of u bt I tin I want to put it into stop. I realise something is that those guys in those clubs are nothing, they just kp hurting gals that may be true 2 them. I want to get off tis kind of life, some life that is more simpler and happier.

Do you knw that I really doesn't have a gd relationships for tis past few years. For those that I love, kp betraying me and hurt me in totally. I'm so inconfident with any guys nw. Sooner or later, they will betray me and I have act that I'm strong. This is tiring and I hating tis kind of life. Sick abt everything nw -_-;

Labour day

2008-05-01T06:45:00.000-07:00

I have to wake up very early today for my Pentecost day celebration. -_-||| ytr went out w Lover (jerlyn) thn she like drinking too much lor, I have take care of jerlyn and Alvin becos bth are fucking drunk. O my god I was like guardian angels for bth of them (PLS NXT TIME DUN DRINK UNTIL LIKE THT OK) it's really hurt to see u guys like that. I will need to wake up 4+am to pray for 10 days before the feast of week.

my loveR - Jerlyn

Alvin - he's damn red lor his face !!!!

edison and his gf

recently i'm felt so calm nw after getting knwing God, maybe I shall be christian earlier. hahaha. Holy mother, thk u for letting me to see him yesternite. I knw that you want testing me, see wherever i can overcome my own desires. To want to be with him, touch him and miss him. I try very hard nt to talk to him first bt I failed to stop miss him bt I have to knw my stands.

I dun want him to think that I'm loose gal that fool ard with guys. I want to change, to some1 better. someone that he may consider me as his gf and I knw that to demand other, I shall demand on myself first. Forgive him is like forgive myself too. I'm blogging in my blog nt to prove anything but nt to hide anything frm u. I do miss you christopher bt I knw your feeling is nt true or I shall said that you dun love me at all but you still love some1. maybe your ex-gf or some1 I dunno. I dun wish to force any1 and i tin that nature take it's course. If holy mother think that we meant to be together thn no matter where and when we will meet. don't you agree?? ^@^

I have to learn to let go my persistent with anything becos holy Mother want me to do so. Love by her is great and i want this to be continue. okie, i shall stop @ tis moment.

so different nw

2008-04-29T03:00:00.000-07:00

I just join a christian church and get baptised so nw i have called myself a christian. later in the evening have some worship praying I need to attend. tml I still have to go for my bible study in one of our father hse.

kind of feeling relax and calm even i knw that some1 I love have fall for some1 else. maybe kind of mind changing tht GoD knw that he doesn't suit me at all. That's y giving me tis kind of obstan to overcome it. If we can overcome it, Future is prospect, if can't thn God knw when it's shall be stop.

I trying to make sure I do my praying everyday :) Jerlyn (Lover) said that she wan to join my church, I tin i have to arrange a day for her to come over my study area. hahaha. most of my members are koreans so take tis opportunity to learn korean but also there r singaporeans.

other time, i take some photos w them and post over my blog la. > <(\/)

sori abt e late blogger

2008-04-27T09:08:00.000-07:00

PS la, I'm too busy for past few days. okie Zouk nite on wed Zenzi join us as usual bt I was kind of shocked that she actually gg w us to zouk. I LOVE IT, IT'S SO FUN. hahaha ok as we agreed that I shall post our pics on blog.

in e ladies (PostinG)

Zenzi and jerlyn

nite out agin

2008-04-22T19:11:00.000-07:00

today as usual, reach sch ard 9am. first lesson is WBA tutorial lesson for 3 hrs. darn bored lor except that every1 in the class using laptops. hahaha

tonite meeting jerlyn ard 9pm(I tin she sure late lor) hahaha dlb O nite agin thn gg 2 zouk. if tonite I saw Daniel, I sure scold him lor becos he anyhw give jerlyn's number to other. Stupid and fling crazy man. angry lor -_-|||

sun for movie

2008-04-21T04:37:00.000-07:00

hahaha ytr went out with buddy, bro ben and his gal friends for movie. We went to watch Love is zero 2. Darn funny lor, R21 movie bt I can tell u that it's worth fo ticket becos when e movie started and until ended, I can't stop laughinG.

that's is 1 part where they pot a stuff into some1 ass and pull out and e male actor eat it. darn awful lor bt it's an njoyable nite thought. ^@^

Fri is a mess lor

2008-04-19T04:14:00.000-07:00

Fri in the evening, I need to rush here & there. firstly need 2 rush 2 TMC to visit Irene but when I saw the baby boy. I was so happi with everythin. We have a great chat over hospital abd it's fun.

izzit he cute?

just can't let go off him. hahaha

bt ltr part I have rush in and out of st James lor. (daniel drank too much) and he's kind pf tippy when he met me 2 pass e keys 2 him. after that i have to rush back to wk plce to work.

bt I can't stop wori abt him lor, (because he's drank too much). I manage to found him in DF bt nvr expected he drank -_-||| (2 bigs of hennesy and martell) Wo lau too much la, I ask his boss 2 send him off first la. e most funny part is that he kp telling to behave myself if I'm gg 2 stay at DF. (for more thn few times) I told him off I came here becos I'm wori abt him lor bt kind of touched abt his behaviour.

Somemore I ask him to sms me when he reach hm bt he can called in mid of my slp like abt 5.30 am, coming 6am. somemore tml need 2 go KL with his boss. I dunno hw 2 wake him up also. haiz. he's super chiongster lor. kekekeke.

tonite I gg DF beos buddy chris n June r there and they are celebrating some of gal bd. scare scare le as I gt too many friends there thn sure drunk also.

So tired lor

2008-04-18T01:03:00.000-07:00

I dunno why tis few wks i was kp disturb by my hp sms. ltr also e same, they love to do sms in late night ah?? why so funny one :(

somemore I become a light sleeper thn sms kp come in. I CAN"T SLP LA. darn angry lor...... dunno tonite I gg wk or gg out agin to my usual plce boiler or power station. lydia haven't sms me so I dunno yet.congrate Irene that she give birth to a baby boy. sayang, me and lover planning gg over SGH to visit her bt sayang is still slping -_-||| thn I wan to take a nap bt scare overslp. more tired thn b4.

PLS cfm the timing as I need to plan my timing lolololol ^@^

too tired but njoyable

2008-04-17T05:01:00.000-07:00

Woo ytr jerlyn, David & I went 2 dlb O for drinks first. We get 2 some friends named zenzi and Daivd frm UK. Nvr noe that AngLes was with her friends. (why I kp met someone I knw in Bolier ah, funny lor especially twice) hahaha

we ltr went to phuture and get to knw tis guy named Daniel. Quite a cute guy and we r like drinknig alot man. all e voccal red bull thn ltr still gt Martell. In later part, he left his hsekeys in my bag. (forget to get pass 2 him)

tml no need 2 go to sch so most possible slp for whole daY and go for jogging in eveninG. abit overspend tis past wks. -_-|||

this zenzi :)

angles, all my clubbing kaki (I LOVE U GALS)

this is Daniel (jerlyn said tt he look like edsion hahaha so funny :))

16 April' 08

2008-04-16T00:04:00.000-07:00

Today i'm wake up too early as I thought i'm studying @11pm. :p So tired becos kind of nt feelinG too well. So sick in morninG and total forget my pencilbox and left it in my hse. luckily manage to borrow frm my classmates.

1 lesson for e whole day thn I can go hm lor. that's so shiok. I went to my sch libuary and getta myself tis singer Michael Buble. Nt bad as i like tis kind of Jazz pop music. When i reach hm, I went online and search for his information and songs. basisly Love him. His voice is very sexy and low pit.

I miss my jazz music cd that I borrow to my friends. I gtta call him and get back soon. tonite is gg 2 Dlb O agin bt ard 11 pm, I shall be gg zouk for some dances. update you guys in lately ^@^

wardrobe 54

2008-04-15T03:56:00.000-07:00

boRed @ scH

2008-04-14T22:20:00.000-07:00

Woo it's super bored abt today leature as e leaturer was toking repeatinG for a few. even I wish to focus on e leature and topic also can't make.

really shit lor, I hope they can change leaturer and i dun tin most of them can focus with his type of teachinG. Nw my area sky look cloudy and I tin it's gg 2 rain soon.

ltr i have some leatures agin as it's tue. full leatures daY for SM, IEA and MIS. after sch, gg out 2 my friends bd on evening. I'm quite happi today as heard tt joanne is gg 2 marry soon at sept 17 and we planning to meet up @ 30th april on wed. I'm so lookin forward 2 it bt pls dun out airplane okie my dear GALS. kekekeke ^@^

tml dlb O agin with jerlyn, maybe drp by 2 zouk ltr. Cannt kp gg 2 chiong alrea la, must earn $$ first. Most possible wking at nite on fri & sat becos I'm trying avoidinG some1. U gals shall noe who izzit bt ah Roy told me that he's off on sat thn shall I wk or nt?

cfm agin with him on fri nite first if we r meeting for dinner or nt so I can plan my time. I wan 2 watch movie thn finally find a kaki lor, can accompany me for Andy Lau movie. LoveLy kekekekeke ><(\/)

Lonely without you

2008-04-14T12:26:00.000-07:00

kind of sad recently. gettinG 2 noe tis guy called c***r. at e first time we met, we will just like drinking kaki. WooO after broke with kendrick, we will like gettin too close.

at first, we r nt readY for tis kind of commitment and we agreed with more thn friends kind of things bt eventually i fall for him. He told me that he ntready for any serious r/s and I wish to take it slowly and nicely. I'm sori abt that nite that i lose my temper bt wat is done is done. Even nw u dun wish to contact me becos i'm rude or hot temper, I'm okie with it. I'm kind of sad that I dun like people that close 2 me to lied or even avoidin me in which u are that nite. I noe that u alrea saw me and u just walk off.

wat kind of thing is that meant? when u need me, I must be there and u dun need me. I must disappear. that is so unfair for me. maybe in ur heart, I'm meant nothin. nothing mean nothing and woman can be emotional. haiz

maybe I'm just ur source of desires and nothin more thn that. maybe I should give up in u instead. I tin I shall stop gg 2boiler until I'm ready to proceed on my life. Seeing u and act lik nothin is no joke and it's can be hurtinG and awful. Let time prove everything -_-;